SABURO KURODA

Translated by MARIANNE TARCOV

The Bet

Autumn Day at Three

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

THE BET

 

 

What would a poor guy like me do with a bride

even if she came with a five million yen dowry?

Buy a piano, drink some sake,

steal a kiss behind the curtains.

Is that it?

What would a drunk like me do with a wife,

even if she positively shone with beauty and virtue?

Hold her in one hand like a new silk hat

I don’t know what to do with.

Is that it?

At that moment,

the world was silent as the grave.

From the second floor of that white building,

I saw

a level of stupidity

that just about equalled mine,

a poor,

stubborn,

weather vane,

with Jacobsen’s rose in her buttonhole

and a suspicious sorrow in each eye,

spitting out curses

like grape pits.

I saw

deep dimples on each side of her mouth:

a girl.

With a world, an era

at stake in this game,

what do I have to bet?

I turned my pockets inside out:

the marriage proposal that will get me my dowry,

my poet’s laurels, my unpaid bills,

loose buttons—

I threw it all out there

and realized,

shaking my wallet up and down,

there’s nothing here worth betting

except

my own

destruction.

The world subsided back to a deathlike stillness,

and like an inexperienced gambler,

I opened my tightly shut eyes.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

AUTUMN DAY AT THREE

 

 

Sitting on a bench by Shinobasu Pond,

I sneak open a flask of whiskey.

In her best dress,

little Yuri gallops across the white sand

and, tracing a circle, comes back.

 

From far away, a sea lion cries in its insane voice,

Kwak kwak kwaaaa!”

Little Yuri comes back

imitating it.

 

Autumn day at three.

The opposite bank swarming with ducks,

scattered with human figures.

 

The faint sound of a car horn.

Everything’s so far away. 

Like infinitely distant worlds,

I see two shadows next to each other on the white sand,

a father skipping work and that little daughter of his.