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from Brief Under Water

 

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I was sad for the birds.  The gym was no kind of sky.  The window was too clean to see.  The wind feigned injury, circling the nest.  The wind's cry was less pained than afraid.  The song in the wire sped out through the perfectly empty holes it sped in through, and the hills, the hills rose and fell under the bullets, whose path truer than a line of sight.  They are blind.  All things are as liquid to them.  God grant them a warm breast / to bury their faces.  And so on and so forth.  Imbecile. 


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With a single pistol shot to the head, South Vietnam police chief Brigadier General Nguyen Ngoc Loan, and then you came in, wearing your hat that said POP'S BOY, with my picture there, and that of the catfish.  I heard my brother throw back the bedclothes and repair to the kitchen, moving a chair to gain the counter, whereupon he opened the cupboard door, opposing its progress with one hand while he pulled with the other, so that it made almost no noise.


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Many years later these bedclothes would retain the power to cheer me, both by the inimitable distress of their fabric and by the illustrations they bore, done in the boy-and-beagle style of Schultz, faded to the tonal consistency of a wash, exhorting those who would become the teens of the eighties to see America first, nor backpack through Europe like the glum trio depicted slinking over the Bosporus, guitar-slung and buried in hair, rank with hashish and innocent of water.


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Why will I not return home.  Why will I not clean up and settle where I may be reasonably assured of gainful employment and make of some eminent institution a touch against the exigencies of my teeth and eyen.  Moreover why I will not return, why I will not provide in your stead for Jenny Lee and the boy. 

 

Lilac, such as you so loved when M__ was alive. 


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In Kawase Hasui's woodblock of Lake Towada we see the love of water for its flatness, a perfect medium, how it seeks the old lows.  It is the sea's one uniformity, whose only rival the sky. 

 

But it was in his Pond at Benten Shrine in Shiba, August, 1929, his Pond at Benten Shrine, Dad, where not a glimmer of water pierces the carpet of broad leaves, that I got my first real taste for submersion; submersion and its irresistible lure.


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Do you party.  Look at me when I'm talking to you.  Yes.  Is there anything else.  I have become 'active'.  Since when.  Wednesday.  Do you have any plan for how to make money.  An alternative to money.  How long do you plan to stay here.  Pass.  Don't those old hangings embarrass you terribly.  The truth is that they have become important to me.  Well, we absolutely have to change the.  It's for you.  Hi.  Hi.  Look, I have to change.  Of course.  I've got it.  Jesus that was loud. 


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We beat the donkey with sticks and we beat it with rope.  To a joist we tied it, its swollen belly we beat until it crumpled, until its head hung and swayed as if it read something in the balsam sprays strewing the floor, though its eyes were useless.  Give it to him, we were shouting. 

 

My new friend stumbled around in his new black blindfold, begging cigarettes.