A Room with a Corpse
It is there on the floor. "So, set fire to
it," the man says bad-temperedly who I only this afternoon brought
in from the night carrying that paper bag all crumpled and puppet-like
in his shadowy hand. "If you want to, I will leave it to you
to do," I say in a minute or two. From the porch he follows
me into a strikingly forlorn front garden with fat rubbery plants
and a high wall around it like a defense against cemetery intruders
who probably have good reason to shout with all their shrewdness
on top of this secret hill. Anyway, I am charmed at the possibility
of being assassinated by fire-throwers. I look at my ex-husband
with unresponsiveness too keen to show my suspicions. Then
I sit down concealed in a deep cradle of weeds below the dwelling's
pitched roof, which is ruinous despite my kind of furniture which
I lugged behind me all the way from a tremendous rough country.
I reason he is a cruel agent of assassination and my senses nearly
leave me, but then he asks, "Would you be glad about a cup of sour
wine?" which even I have to disclose is big first-rate decorum!
I wait there until a late hour. I am friendless and without
the lamp! Having detected the falsity of his earlier offer
of refreshment, I vow never to see him again. But, shortly,
I apprehend his presence by the murmur of his not-far-distant voice.
It seems highly improbable, however I am forced to admit that he
is talking inside with a Sister of the Holy Office of X. I
hear the door as it's barred and watch through the filthy (locked)
window as the two together begin to mount the steps, jerking to
and fro, she with his assistance and he merciful to give it.
They have definitely stopped right outside the bedroom door.
I'm sure that together they are moving within a few yards of my
bed, sitting or sipping tea under the eiderdown or within a few
yards of my bed. I locate a piece of wood in the mostly empty
grass and use it to break into my own dwelling with its cold linoleum
and nothingness. There is detectable movement on the other
side of the floor above my head.
I inquire aloud whether Mr. D is still here. I consider rushing
up the stairs and hauling them over the coals, but don't do it.
How could they possibly know that today I would be the central character
in a mystery of my own making? What motive was there?
I hear them move on the floorboards directly above my head and onto
the bed with its creaking. By now they've quite possibly broken
to smithereens the blue-veined china I tenderly packed and lugged
behind my back from a gloom thick with junipers and thickets!
Through the keyhole their faces are blurred, limp, satiny.
He's done now, finishing up, buttoning. She will have traveled
miles through the forest to have become the person uttering there.
Soon I apprehend murmurs of more civilized feelings: "My darling,
my mud spattered lover." But what has he even been doing here,
pulled in from the dump, a nutcase? Through the keyhole could
it possibly be he is perched upon my pile of rubbish in the corner,
precariously bending over you? Other hints I could give you,
which would be strong and dreadful. But tears are flowing
from the now genuinely thankful nun's eyes and someone is shouting
beyond the walls around my garden invoking something, crying about:
"Everything is left and left will turn queer!"
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