Paige Ackerson-Kiely. In No OneÕs Land. Ahsahta Press, 2007.

 

 

Review by DJ Dolack

 

 

 

 

Paige Ackerson-KielyÕs debut collection takes its title from a quote by the Finnish poet, Bertel Gripenberg, ÒIn no oneÕs land, with no one will I stay,Ó and throughout the book we get the sense that she has resigned herself to the perspective of the northern, barren latitudes that invoke the voices of poets like Gripenberg and Tomas Transtromer, Czeslaw Milosz and early Franz Wright. On the surface it is poetry of ruin, of gauche reaction and circumstance. But there is a tenderness and intimacy to Ackerson-KielyÕs voice that for some reason we trust ­— even when we know itÕs unkind to watch as her characters and narrators fold inward.

                The opening poem, ÒForeplayÓ, aptly begins the collection by introducing us to a place that seems superbly normal, but could change climate at any time. We are sitting uncomfortably in a motel room when Ackerson-Kiely delivers her first punch, ÒThere are times when the absence of pride means the lion is eating his cub. The lioness under some reeds growling like an unwound basket.Ó From this, we know the collection is not out to comfort, nor is it likely to labor over the descriptive in order to tell the story or deliver the immediacy. This is a world of obsessive action and unsettling neglect. What feels so disconnected is the reality of the scenes; it continues, ÒHere is a man darning his sock. Here is a woman spitting into a sink.Ó Ackerson-Kiely is introducing us, welcoming us to her place, to the collection, ÒHere is all of Berlin in the creosote of the coughing, sitting primly at the windowsill, looking out.Ó Here, and throughout much of In No OneÕs land, Ackerson-Kiely puts the majority of emphasis on effect, while leaving little room for cause. But this doesnÕt matter; our mind has already invented it. To end this poem and lead us into the first section of the book, she lands another shot to the cheek:

 

                Any minute now someone will push his way through the door and

                announce something. Dinner is served. The surgery was a great success.

                IÕm sorry maÕam, but youÕll have to come with me. Answer a few questions.

 

                These are poems of gravity and some sort of omniscience. The narrator knows the boundaries, passions, and intentions of her characters as if better than they do, and has little doubt as to how the poetry will react. WhatÕs most refreshing is that there is little abstraction and self-conscious irony in the language, but still the opportunity for the mind to fill in its share of blanks. We donÕt have to learn to read these poems, but we have no choice but to react to them.  Most lines are declarative and, though often neurotically considerate, the voice employed can be chastising and stark. In ÒInstructional Lecture for a Liquor Store Clerk,Ó Ackerson-Kiely brings across the immediacy of not only the poem, but of the entire collection:

 

                The customers want something from you that you do not own but

                in fact lord over. Let the older men call you baby or hon, it relaxes

                them. See how they tremble, hands like a wet fawn one hour old

                pushing up to stand. It will be a hard winter and the fawn wonÕt

                make it. Mostly it is bleak.

 

ItÕs this sense of awareness she holds over the poems that keeps us willing to find out and discover. What else does she know? The poems seem to understand too well their surroundings and apologize for that fact only by exploring some more. ItÕs as if they are telling the reader, See? ItÕs not that bad. We all do it; it happens to everyone. The odd stability on the part of the narrator, even when the circumstances should elicit trepidation or some morose eeriness, is compulsive and pure. To end the poem ÒIllnessÓ, Paige writes:

 

                               Snow

                               falling and melting

 

                               on a dumpster out back

                               really

                               shining in the moonlight.

 

                               People who say, at least

                               I have my health.

 

                               Other people nodding.

 

                There are strong elements of early Franz Wright in both the images and line breaks in this poem, especially when we look at her tendency to mix mood and action, nature and oddity in order to confront the silence of the situation. We are particularly reminded of the ending of WrightÕs ÒElegy: Breece DÕJ PancakeÓ:

 

                               summer thunder

                               from a cloudless sky . . .

                               The abandoned abandon.

                               There are no adults.

                               YouÕre dead

                               but look whoÕs talking.

 

In both of these passages, we get the sense of time crawling, and the narrator right there among the characters of the poem. How else could we get such images?  Note Ackerson-KielyÕs Òsnow/falling and meltingÓ to WrightÕs Òsummer thunderÓ image, as well as her enjambed ÒreallyÓ giving her total control over pacing, one of WrightÕs specialties. Both of these poems also end with a solemn reflection on the part of the speaker, as if the camera has panned slowly inward for the conversation, and though Wright closes with a beautifully  comic, terribly askew comment on the crowd, Ackerson-KielyÕs fade-out is more unsettling, more uniquely dark and personally affronting. We are there with her, sitting at the bar, afraid to say the wrong thing, to make the inconsiderate movement. And Paige lets us know she is watching. The tone is again serious but tinged with anxiety. We ask ourselves why the person is saying this to the crowd; yet more importantly, we ask ourselves why the others are nodding. Perhaps they cannot make the statement they have just heard (can we?). But why. If Ackerson-Kiely knows, sheÕs not telling us.

                Though Ackerson-KielyÕs acute sense of pause and rhythm pushes most of these poems with sharp line breaks, the prose poems placed regularly throughout the book show us that some were just meant to be told as bedtime stories for the disavowed. She brings ÒOnenightstandÓ to a conclusion writing, ÒDo it not for the deer with their eyes like the bedrooms of unrented apartments. Tell me how you set out the salt-lick when you were a boy. Tell me how they approached your hand, which you pretended held food, but was merely a closed fist.Ó

                Something should also be said of the sensuality running through many of the poems. Though Ackerson-KielyÕs voice carries a strength and self-assuredness, it is also the victim of  physical desire and aspiration. There is both a need to be loved, and loving as a way to feel needed. But what resounds most is the anxiety she employs when faced with the circumstances. In ÒSilent NightÓ, she quips about an uncomfortable situation between could-be lovers:

 

                I am talking around the fact that you arenÕt supposed to be here, in flesh

                or in my capacity to imagine my flesh as yours --- touching me the way you

                would pull back the smallest bit of wick from a kerosene lantern. Make it

                fucking darker.

 

The mood here is mostly manic and unrestrained, and the focus of the speaker is on the act of love and physicality of sex rather than the passion and emotion that runs along side. There is a coldness in the voice and a selfish (yet understandable) want. The narrator gives in, but reluctantly. However, it seems the other character wants more, and has even plead a case, though the speaker wants nothing of it, ÒÉ& after touching me the world would end not with flood or fire or people throwing themselves out of buildingsÉ The whole world & I might then sleep, sleep in heavenly peace.Ó This sentiment is recurrent throughout the book and gives us another window through which we can understand its motivations. Lines like ÒI locked up all / of the beautiful things / that might move me.Ó (ÒThe Potential of RaptureÓ) and ÒI donÕt want to be held / up by anything.Ó (ÒElegy for GuizhouÓ) remind us of the battle between constantly needing to be free from others, yet at the same time the reality of being attached and guided through life with little sense of self-sufficiency.

                This is not to say that tenderness does not circulate within the poems, but itÕs there hidden between moments of fixation and control:

 

                               We kiss permanently although it feels sudden, jet-streamed, and

                               constantly I am reminded of my tiny gun that grows damp under

                               the weight of my hand. We kiss under the damp weight of my hand.

 

Again itÕs as if the speakerÕs passion is misdirected, and we know itÕs due to distrust. This quick scene, seemingly out of a pulp novel, shows us the bookÕs besotted skepticism of nature, marriage, relationships, and death. The speaker is constantly at arms, constantly looking for clues in order to maintain control of all situations. The reason this works throughout the book is because we can so closely admire and relate to the necessity for understanding, for organization and power over our lives — especially when we see our skies cloud with relentless responsibility and dependence.

                In No OneÕs Land is split into five sections, with a single poems book ending the collection. Though there is no obvious need for the divisions, they give us pause when it feels most appropriate, in order to perhaps go back and reflect upon what Ackerson-Kiely has given thus far. In her comments about the book and writing in general, as taken from the Ahsahta Press webpage, Ackerson-Kiely writes of her work as being connected to Òthat wait, that laborious and lonely wait one waits until the very last finger releases the side of the cliff, and one is free, completely and finally free of the cliff.Ó In this collection, itÕs fairly obvious that the poems themselves are concerned with not only the interval between clutch and dismount, but also the grounds and rationale for her dangling in the first place. She is planning a fall on her own terms, taking stock of her surroundings and making distinctions— who else is hanging and how loosely, how cold is the wind pushing against the neck, and what will survive without her.